omg,its 5 months since I last typed an entry.I guess there are a lot of reasons,first of all its a problem with my English language,I am not studying it anymore so it means that everyday I am forgetting it and its getting complicated to communicate with my foreign friends.

Today is 1 of March and its already a 6 month since I am learning the Chinese language!!^_^Yes,I am living my dream and of course its not easy,but the most important is that I love that language and one day I want to be perfect in it!All I need is a patience and a hard work,but sometimes I feel so week and lonely and I want to see my sisters,who are so far from me in London and friends...It's great that I have my laptop and finally a broadband internet connection!!^_^

On my third year at the university I will go to Beijing for 1 year studies and if I will handle there,because studies are going to be totally in Chinese,then there is a chance to stay there fo 3 years and graduate from university there and get a Beijing certificate*dies*

Everything depends on me now,my whole life,but quite often I feel so lazy and I cant force myself to start studying...I dont know why actually,I am already 20 years old and my life consits only of studies the most,while my pals already have a family or a boyfriends,everybody wants to love and be loved in return,but for me its like not going that way at all.I love my family,who is not with me,I love my pals who are also living their lives all over the world (Ireland,Sweden,Russia,Lithuania)also friends from the internet means a lot to me and I care for them very much!!

Next week I am going with mom to Lithuania for 4 days its GREAT that I will meet with my pals,hehehe

I guess after 6 months I can say and feel that I have finally got used to that country and a living.I feel ok at uni and one day I hope i would say that I am happy being here,but not yet,there are people and especially memories which drives me crazy...

It has been a long since I have updated my Xanga and back in those days everything was so complicated because of the final exams and finishing 12 years of school.

Recently there are a lot of things on my mind and I need to let them out.

People are always scared of uncertainty and things they can't see or understand,I am that kind of person.Before doing something important I need a lot of encouragement from my family,friends(especially those one whom I get to know  through the internet)it means a lot to me!

Recently I went to Vilnius(The capital of Lithuania)with my elder sister by car(she is living and working there)because some how I wanted to feel alone and on my own.The first few days I was really happy,exploring the city.But it happened an accident and I still can't recover from it.It was a hot and sunny day,my elder sister left to the work early as usual,so I had a long sleep until 12 o clock and then I decided to go in the cinema and then to meet up with Olga and go together in the shopping mall.I dressed up nicely(high heels,mini white skirt) and left.When I was almost near the cinema I felt so at ease,listening to my fav music,sending sms to pals and sudenly I almost fall down and hurt my ankle very hard!The pain was so strong that I began to cry.There were loads of people around me and I couldn't walk further even a step,so I took off my shoes and the cinema entrance was just few meters behind me so some how I managed to enter it and sit down on the sofa.I was alone,scared and with a great pain in my leg.I wished that it would happen in Klaipeda but I had to face with different situation.After a while I called Olga,I didn't wanted to disturb her,so pretended that my injury is not so serious and that I can wait 5 hours till she will finish her work.I wrote sms to Sveta,Kate,Marie,Natasha about my condition and they were forcing me to call an ambulance,because I even could not feel my fingers.The thing is that I am very afraid of hospitals and doctors its like a fobia.

When Olga came she was shocked and thought that I have broke my leg so she called an ambulance at once.And now when I experienced all that process I think it is not a big deal,everyone was so nice,because its their job I think.On the next day Olga brought me in Klaipeda.That was like a lesson for me that human being can't live alone and independence even when you have money is not a great thing.The other thing is that leaving for studies in a huge city compared to Klaipeda is a very serious step too.But only there I can fulfil my dream about learning Mandarin and going to China!I have to sacrifice my friends,family everything and finally grow up!

During this year I was only thinking about entering university after finishing school,my pals were curious that I am not dating and even not interested in it.I can unswer that I have not met a right guy first and second it will ruin my plans leaving to another country.But still there is one person  who is on my mind and he will never know that I am thinking about him (even if he will read this entry)and it puts a smile on my face while thinking about him.I don't know him very good,but quite a few things just makes me to like him,yes it sounds insane.I am a little bit lost,but one day it has to end,because it may turn in a big pain to me.

Because of my leg my trip to Minsk is cancelled and I will go there on 12 of July.

My exams already started and today was the last speaking exam(Russian).

I did quite very WELL!!haha

Here is the results:

English speaking-8(of overall 10)

Lithuanian speaking-9(of overall 10)

Art-30 points(of overall 30)

Russian speaking-9(of overall 10)

It was no so simple to get such a high marks.hehe

Firstly I have to say SPECIAL thanks for people who supported me and you girls encourage me very much!!*huggles*

Thanks to:Jessica unnie,Grace,Anna,Markus,May,Karen!!!You are the best!

Now I have a break till 22 of May.Actually I have to say,that writing exams are much harder than speaking>.<

Also I hope to return for a while in Rain thread,because I miss you girls there and I have to spazz about oori oppa!hehe

P.S I am not counting my Art exam on 11 of May,because I think it will be not so difficult,but still I am quite nervous,hehe

AJA AJA HWAITING!(Jeong Ji Hun)

I havent updated my xanga for so long>.<

Just nothing special has happened in my life.This year I am finishing school and I feel a lot of stress of upcoming examsAnd I am afraid what will be further with my life...

Here is some dates of my exams:

English speaking-20 of April

Lithuanian speaking-25 or 26 of April

Art-27 of April

Russian speaking-3 of May

Art-11 of May

Russian writing-22 of May

Lithuanian writing-24 of May

English writing-31 of May

Art theory test-13 of June